Tuesday, June 16, 2015


So many memories to be there and here and everywhere today. I'm not a fan of them all...they have to go away. Somewhere there has to be a way to get over it all. Just something needs to be taken out of the picture and taken care of. It's just something that's not right. There are better days than others...days that make more sense than others. It's all just a bunch of hogwash. Whatever. I can deal with it...I think. If you expect everything to be okay as it is...well let's just stop there.

Oh What A Day

There is but a moment of thought in such a day. There is nothing beyond that thought however, and it makes everything tend to fall into a deep abyss where nothing else matters. If nothing matters at this point in life, then what is the reason behind trying to attempt the impossible? Does such a thought exist? What about all of those things that don't exist? Are they simply thoughts in a mind full of nothing which chooses to not believe in anything?

It is but a puzzle at times. Something inside tells you not to worry about it, and yet here you are worrying about everything there is to worry about in the universe...all because it will someday collapse in on you and you won't have an understanding of what's going on. Oh to have those thoughts make sense...to have them actually breathe and be alive.

None of this ... nonsense would be here if the thoughts would be around and everything else would be there for a person to have false hope for. Is that what people wish for? A false hope where nothing matters anymore?

Perhaps it is but a lie and everything else doesn't matter in this world. If that's the case, then it all will go downhill eventually. Who cares at this point, if it's a lie it's a lie and there's nothing else to matter at all.

Monday, June 15, 2015

A Thing

So there was this thing...and it was kinda annoying. So I says to this thing, thing why are you so annoying? The thing thought about it for a moment or two and then said, I don't know it's just my nature.

Talk about a lesson. That's what the thing does. Its nature is to simply be annoying. So annoying that it doesn't bother with anything else. So that's all it does.

Such a stupid thing. A stupid stupid thing that's stuck in my head right now. So long time coming in fact that it doesn't feel like ever leaving. So it doesn't. Stupid thing just sits around doing nothing except for buggin' the ever living life out of me.

You'd think I'd learn by now. No, doesn't work that way. Doesn't work that way at all.

Stupid annoying thing.


I'm pretty sure this space craft wasn't meant for long extended flight. I mean the aliens are nice and everything, but they can be rather annoying at times. Always coming into my room and probing me. Well I'm sure they don't want to kill me...I hope. Hopefully they just want to test things and do the random stuff...you know alien things.

Did I mention they fed us well? Oh hell yeah they did. We were eating steaks and whatever we wanted to basically. I of course made sure they didn't want to fatten us up so they could eat us. But that's beside the point. They wanted us fed well.

Whatever the case for the food, at least it was good food.

Walking around my room I had anything I wanted. All the pleasantries of life. Well all but freedom. It didn't seem to be fair at first, but then I came across their extensive library. Now when I say it was extensive, I mean extensive. They had books from their race as far as the eyes could see.

Talk about something amazing.

I started reading immediately. They seemed to be pleased I was taking it all in so eagerly.

Among the earlier centuries of their people, they had wars. So many wars it's impossible to count them all accurately. Probably due to records being destroyed in the process.

But they survived. No matter what problems arose in their society, they survived to become the race they are today. Now if that's not amazing, I don't know what is.

The funny thing, I'm content to be among them. You could say I am actually happy for once in life. I'm not sure why I'm happy...I just am.

Can't wait to see where we're headed. They just scooped us up and took off. They didn't bother to mention exactly where we're going.

So I guess, we'll just have to wait and see what happens.

To Be Needed

Oh that moment of clarity that doesn't ever come. Something to say...something to do. To be needed is an important part of this life. Everyone wants to be needed.

It's much different than wanting to be loved or wanted. It's a much deeper connection. To be needed...is something unique. I don't know how to explain it. It's just something deeper. It's the thought that someone actually depends on you. Maybe less, maybe more than that. Whatever the case, it's something that's there.

Talk about a brain jumble.


Someday life will make sense
it only takes a moment
or two
perhaps three

If only a moment
existed in time
a fragment of life
or something

Someday it will all go away
the worry, the stress, the pain
everything that ties you down
into nothing

Only someday will come
one day

Thursday, June 11, 2015

To Be Loved

Oh to be loved, it isn't that difficult of a thought...is it? You're with someone and you want to be happy. You need to feel that connection. You just want them to love you. What makes it so difficult of a thing? Why isn't there a peaceful resolution to any of it? Is there just some oddity that doesn't make sense and that's why you're unable to feel love from the other spouse? No, I don't think it would make much sense.

So what exactly is love? Been trying to figure that out for the past couple of whatevers. Doesn't seem to be an answer yet. I'm sure it will come eventually. But things must be lost before they can be found again.