Friday, August 28, 2015

Hello Weekend

You'd think the weekend would bring about some form of happiness. It's Friday. What more is there to think about on such a day? I don't know. Who really ever does know what's going to happen on such a day. All you can do is continue moving forward...why bother with any other thought.

So there you go. Going forward without the thought of anything else.

It's a simple idea.

A thought.

An engaging theory.

Wanting something or someone...and you can't do anything about it. So you become that thing. You end up becoming whatever it is you have feared over the years.

Everything ends.

Nothing lasts.

Tuesday, July 21, 2015

Another Day

Another day comes around
long before you can decipher
all that will happen
and allow it to erase
the bad thoughts in your mind
oh what a lovely hell you've created
here in your own head
but you won't bother with it
not now, maybe when you're dead
so you live
and you love
and you live some more
trying to understand all there is not to grasp
and behold

Thursday, July 9, 2015

Losing It

Feels like I'm losing it...and I don't even know what "it" is anymore. This life manages to come and go and there's nothing a person can really do but hold onto the rails for the roller coaster ride they're headed on. Talk about a crazy thought process to say the least. I'd rather not even think about such things. Maybe it's best I don't. Who knows what will happen when that silly ness tends to happen. I simply don't know.

I should probably stop thinking so much. Causes my brain to do think.

Wednesday, July 8, 2015

This LIfe Is Confusing

So here we are out in this great thing called life. It can be confusing at times. Something to be understood by anyone, and yet here we are. People have different views on anything and everything. You never know how it will turn out and so along you go. Wondering and wishing about whatever comes to your mind. You'd think it would be a time of contemplation or a time of peace. Sometimes it's just fear that comes to you and everything falls out of place. Oh how amusing that can amusing I mean completely frightening and scared.

You never know what will happen in this life. It has a way of grabbing hold of you in ways you didn't imagine. Something has to eventually give in, you have to be able to seek out that thing which makes you upset the most and allow it to leave.

It must be forgotten. Everything must be forgotten eventually.

Tuesday, July 7, 2015


What is this love
that you seem to have?
The happy feelings
that turn out to be sad
something out there
and something inside
simply put
some wish to die
Oh but a day
a thought and a moment
it all comes down
to nothing at all
Everything lasts
forever it seems
but forever only
lives within your own dreams
To be honest with yourself
and honest with others
you might need to take a step back
and figure it all out
what is love
and how does one obtain
such a thought process
before it goes down the drain?
To understand it all
at once is a crime
don't even try it
for you'll do the time

Monday, July 6, 2015


Deeply lost within a thought
or two or six, perhaps a thousand
it comes and goes before you know it
something to end all the thoughts
floating about in your head
if only but a moment
you are able to contemplate
why these thoughts come by
everything else will come and go
but thoughts, they do remain
lost within the mind
of an ordinary day
perhaps another thought
to come and go as it will
a life will end
a choice last lived
to end it all it must

Saturday, July 4, 2015


Happiness once lived in my soul. Now there's only a dark place that remains. Who was to know what all of that would take to encompass it all. Filled with sorrow, depressed thoughts I sit waiting for the dawn of day to come and take me away from it all. Something happy must be waiting out in the distance. Something must be out there. I have to hold onto hope, have to hold on to something. Yes something that will take away all of this grief. Nothing else can last or hold on if happiness finds a way back into this deep black soul of mine.

If only to wait, then I will wait. It will happen someday, eventually. Holding on to a light. It's not my light I can see, it's dark where I am. There's a light though. A simple light where the string is thin, I can barely see it. I can barely hold onto it. Thin as a fishing line...something not right about that. If only I can hold on to it for a bit longer I might be okay.

Who's to say what will happen. I am only but me.